Been a few days since I’ve been on here, I guess it’s because I’m ok. I’m actually better than ok. I’m happy right now. I love this time of year, and I honestly thought I’d be alone for it. But unexpectedly I’ve met someone a bit lovely. I’ve pretty much sorted xmas for the family too which is nice. All I have to focus on is my self, and stop this self destructive side of me and in all honesty I now have a reason.
This EP is helping today go smoothly ish ha.
Me and the birthday boy!
Such an awesome night!
The Breakfast Club
This is too relevant right now!
(Source: lolitacollective, via lovestruckliar)
I wonder if you said what you said knowing that it could effect me.
Or was it a test of our “friendship” or if you even knew what you said.
I was there for you when you needed me and now you’ve said something that you cant take back and i dont know what to do with it, its like knowing I have the gun and you’ve just given me the bullet and wanting to see if I’ll pull the trigger, and in all honesty I’m struggling not to.
You know what happened to me, and how I felt, yet you did it anyway… you seem to want a reaction from me, and I can ensure you that you won’t get it, as I don’t show my weaknesses as I don’t promote them.
I need to think about this. What ever happens this isn’t my fault you did this not me.
I find certain people very amusing at times, its amusing to me as they don’t seem to think before they speak, especially when they speak about myself and how terrible I am as a human to my closest friends and dont expect it to get back to me… I know everything, and quite frankly don’t give a shit. Firstly if your not willing to be an adult about this that’s fine. I still am, and will continue to act like one. Secondly please dont think I don’t know anything about whats been said I know it all, again I’ll keep it to myself, for now just refrain from talking about me and I’ll forget about it.
"Become bigger than the issue, rise above it and then look down upon it and realised its nothing but a small insignificant speck of dirt you care nothing about."
Actually not wanting to return home, an empty house and a full mind never turn out to be a good combination.